JUNE 24 2006 ??????

A Day We Said "I Do"

So Soon Forgotten

Because? Was  It Real?

We Said The Vows We Planned Everything

But Someone Was In The Shadows

14 Years Today 

But It Is Like Nothing

No Words Spoken

As If It Didn't  Matter

I Reflect On 

The Words Of Skeeter Davis Today

Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don't they know it's the end of the world
'Cause you don't love me anymore

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was
I can't understand, no, I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry…

I Viewed  Some That Are Celebrating Today Such A Loving Reunion And Today Is The Day It Was Mine Too, But No Such Celebrating Occurs Because It Was Not Real.

 Oh, It Felt It At The Time With All The Planning The Rings Bought The Excitement The Family That Celebrated It Was  Such A Joyous Occasion But Little That I Knew Someone Was There In The Shadows Still So Why Would It Mean Anything Today 14 Years Later? 

Nothing?? No Happy Anniversary No Nothing Just Abusive Behavior, As Usual, A Man Who Has A  Mean Heart Full Of ???? I Do Not Know How To Describe It :( 

But How Could I Expect Anything From A Man Who Could Never Give?

I'm At A Loss 

Today I Wrote In Blue Because It Was Our Colors But Those Colors Are No More.

Things Have Changed 

I No Longer Look At Things The Same

So I Say Today 14 Years 

On A Piece Of Paper 

30 Years In My Heart  

The Time I Have Invested Alone

Yes Today I Am Lonely In My Heart

Saddened  And Broken 

I Never Said One Word Today Why Would I?

Because Why Would You Celebrate A Fake Marriage??

I Committed 30 Years Ago I Took Vows 14 Years ago

But To This Sick Mental Nasty Person, It Means Nothing

So Sad :(

Well, This Is One For The Books 

My Heart As It Stands!