Monday, September 21, 2020

Writings On A Tablet-Family Trees

 Writings On A Tablet For No One To See 

Only Discovered Years Later For Eyes Of Another To See

Emotional Writer You & Me

We Feed Of Emotion Pens To Paper Fingers On Computer Keys

As We Write On & On For Others To See

Hidden In A Notebook Journals From Very Young Letters From A Far

Handed Down From Mother To Daughter Of Grandfathers Writings

The Writings I Have Seen Sparked The Writing In Me

Emotions Flowing Or The Beginnings Of The Day The Inspiration Has Fueled Me This Way

Many Thanks To My Creative Muse My Creative Family 

Writings My Feelings My Scribbling My Emotions Is From You

This I Know Is True Given To Me

Handed Down From One Generation To Another Precious Gift Given Never Taken For Granted

Inspiration To Share With Everyone

I Will Continue To Use No Matter When No Matter What In The Day Or Night 

During A Movie Or Late In My Sleep, I Can Awaken With The Words of Inspiration 

It Flows No Matter The Source When The Pen Is In My Hand Upon The Paper It Will Write Till No End

Your Guidance Will Continue To Flow Ever More The Writing Will Continue Through My Hand

With Pens To Paper Fingers To Computer Keys Your Guidance Will Forever Flow

For Everone To Read & See How Inside I Feel Emotionally

When The Inspiration Comes I feel Compelled To Write 

Your Guidance Your Light Allows Me To Show The World What I Write

I Love My Great Grandparents My Grandparents My Mother & Father 

Self Made Individuals Who Never Gave Up They Always Perserveared Their Strength To Fight

For Beliefs For What They Achieved Through They Had Some Bumps In The Road 

Some Of Them Had Shorter Roads They Worked & Meant What They Said

They Were Real I feel Their Strength From The Depths Of My Soul They Fuel My Spirit

They Fuel My Heart Writings Upon Pen To Paper My Fingers To Keys 

My Fuel My Family My Roots My Love From These Family Trees

I Am Wh I Am Because Of My Family Who Came Near & Far Distances

Places Of Beauty Places Of Strife Ridicule Places Od Death For Who They Are 

The Heritage They Came From They Rose Above Struggles They Faced

Artistic Background Self Starters Hard Workers With Principles

I Am Blessed To Express Myself In This Way My Ancestors My Gifts

Freedom From The Heart Down To our Fingers 

To Paint Write Express Love From Your Family Tree From Your Family Soul

Express What Is In Your Family Tree

For Them, This Is For You I

 Thank My Ancestors, My Family What A Magical Beautiful Strong Tree



Secrets Can Destroy Lies Can Not Be Repaired

That's Why No Matter The Lie The Secret They Always Surface Somehow Some Way

Lies Never Stay Buried Because Like Old Bones They Are Dug Up & Revealed

That Is Why Secrets & Lies Never Stay Underground

How Can They Because The Excavation Is Truth That Brings Them To Light

So There You Have It I Tell You No Secrets Tell Me No Lies The Truth Will Set You Free

Therefore Never Lie Never Deceit Never Be Unfaithful To Me

In This Rant Family So Much Love So Much Deceit Maybe? Lies?

Reality is Everone Has Some Skeletons Old Bones They Want To Hide

But Are They Really Hidden? They Are Always Found Once The Truth Surfaces One Way Or Another

Best To Be Straight Forward-Honest-True But Does That Exist Today?

Can Anyone Ever Do, I Wonder I Truly Wonder If It Is Possible?

As This Rant Comes To An End It Never Pays To Have Secrets Or Lies

They Only Hurt The Ones They Love Because In The End 

The Dust Settles & The Old Bones Pile Up You Have To Pick Through Pile The Puzzle

That Unfolds From All Those Secrets & Lies

What A Waste Of Time I Don't Understand It, This Is The Reason For This Rant

Ok Enough Of That Life Is Precious & Short

Live Love & No More Secrets No More Lies

Makes For Peace In This Chaotic World

Looking Back

Looking Back, Looking Back In The Mirror

Looking Back In Time, Looking Back On Memories

Looking Back Of Friends & Family

Who We Are Where Came From Whom We Came From

Who We Are Now

Those Remnants Of Our Past Our History Our Family Our Heritage

It Does Not Define Us It Gives Us A Ground Of Where It Began 

As We Grow We Change To Another Path Or Another Belief

When Looking Back It Gives A Sense Of Relief

We Came From A Place Maybe Good Maybe Bad 

At The End Of The Day Things & People Change

New Paths New Beginnings To Be Better People A Better Soul

We Can Have Roots We Can Have Family

We Can Change Up Root Reality We Can Create We Can Be Better Than Hate

We Can Evolve We Can Change Our Family Chooses Us

We Learn From Their Love & Turn It Into Something To Be Proud Of

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Giving the best of us

Ruby and I are lifelong friends, mothers, wives, daughters and sisters to our families. We have shared a lifetime of common experiences, and since I cannot tell you what Ruby thinks, I will share our experience from only my point of view.

Being a mother and wife is a great blessing. A gift that we cherish and honor. Being a wife and mother can also be a dutiful sacrifice that goes under appreciated or of unspoken gratitude. There is a level of understanding between a partner, the unsaid thank yous, the unheard praise mentioned to another. I’ve heard mention of my value as a wife, as a mother. It’s a very different facet to hear from the source that all your dedication and attention were in fact observed and pleasing.

Sometimes the day to day of life and family get the best of a mom. Sometimes the days stretch into weeks, months, years, and then decades of giving the best of us. It goes for granted that at 5 am there is going to be a cup of hot coffee ready with just the right amount of sweetener and cream. It can be overlooked that it took all day to prepare a meal that really was devoured in 15 minutes and replaced with junk an hour before or after. These little incidents are not intentional slights. There are just oversights or lack of attention to detail.

But being Mom puts us pretty much on top of the pack at the details. Our firstborn may love milk and cereal every morning, and that all inspiring 2nd sibling either goes without or wants the whole shabang of a cooked breakfast. We know how to serve it. We know how to get the smile that warms the heart. We paid attention to the wonderful little details that make our babies lives good and wonderful, as much as possible within our power to do so. All of these little things somehow get lost until a couple special days a year to remind us that mom’s value is gold, platinum, and diamond. And heaven forbid if we forget something.

Within this space of providing for everyone's needs we often forget to nurture ourselves. Or we feel some limiting negative emotional drawbacks that keep us from taking that moment to relax and take care of the one who cares for everyone. I personally was so focused on my children, husband, career, home, chores, church, and parents, that I let loose of a lifelong friendship that could have been a great benefit not only just to me but also to my DearHeart Ruby. I own up to letting those letters stop being written, to letting life get very hectic with kids, diaper duty, then kindergarten. It only just progressed from there. Filling in the details of all my babies wishes and freeing up the space that use to be a friendship of genuine heartfelt proportion. Ruby knows how I feel. I have reminded her many times since, that her value to me is priceless. It is immeasurable.

She is the Ruby stone that sat in my jewel-box, guarded for a special day that rarely had the blessing of arriving. The days when you get all dressed up, put on your best outfit and favorite shoes. The day your hair turns out perfect and you have just the right shade of lipstick to make everything pop to hubby’s eyes. The day you go thru the jewelry box and search through all the daily trinkets and there is its special spot is that 1 perfect gem to make the whole look feel like a million dollars. Its that day Hubby says thank you darling for being you. Its the day your babies graduate with honors or get their first job on their own. It a time when heaven opens up the sky and all the blessings come together for that greatest day of wonderful life that made all the sacrificing worth it.

Its the day Ruby or I sit down, in a quiet space, and take a cup of tea, or a sangria, and get out our stationary and re-read the gigantic letter that came in the post. The day we laugh to ourselves, and let our tears roll if need be, our eyes intent, the thoughts racing to respond supportively and write to our hearts content and to content our dearhearts. Its the day we get to nurture ourselves and make everything right with the universe and the creator. It our jewel of a day and Ruby is my jewel of choice to make this life so wonderful.

Thank you Ruby for re-inventing the wheel so I could roll back to you!